weight lifter

what are we burdened with?

1. work/studies
2. responsibilities
3. bag, books, laptop!!! (i'm like a turtle groaning from d load and building up muscles and strain =P)
4. guilt?
5. i'm sure there are more... can't think of them right now though...

haiz... seems like life is such a burden. are we hunch-backs from all the weight we carry around? y do we have burdens? for moulding? as punishment? to make us attuned to reality? juz becoz and we've to accept it?

life... tiring? i wanna be... free from this burden or at least have someone who can share my load. yet i also want to be hmmm independent. hahah i'm a confused person. =S

reminded of a song i'm sorry i can't remember who's d author or what's d copyright if there still is... it's called:

He will carry you... and it goes something like this (with some parts left out heh):

there is no problem too big... he cannot solve it...

there is no sorrow too deep... he cannot soothe it...

if he carried the weight of the world upon his shoulder

i know my bro/sis that he'll carry you

He said, 'come to me all who are weary and i will give you rest'

Thanks =)

Amazing... realised there are some invisible readers of my blog haha... thanks for being interested in sharing this walk with me. BIG SMILE for all of u =D haha but i'm still getting used to pple tokking to me outta no where abt wat i posted hehe.. i'll be like huh...hmmmm.... oooooohhhh... yeah yeah... heheh... so don't get me wrong if i react abit slowly or don't tok much about it in response to what you say heh...

Rose Apple aka Jambu

Rose Apples aka Jambu. Lovely deep blushing red or pale green with a pear shape. White wax like flesh that's juicy sweet. Crunchy to the bite. Lovely...

Was cutting some of them today, looking forward to eating, when i happened to chance upon some rotten cores. Such a pity. 2 out of 3 lovely looking jambus were rotten inside. they had formed a round ball in the centre, with holes, some of the holes extending to the other parts of the flesh. brownish black small ant-size and likeness stuff formed part of the ball with some of these even embedded in the other parts of the flesh. i dunno y, but i always seem to stumble upon such stuff. white little slimy crawlies squirming in a nice looking banana... rotten cored big red sweet juicy apple... a number of times too. i shall spare u the details. but well, i've formed a habit of analyzing my fruits before i eat haha... and today i took quite a pleasure in analysing my new found rotten cores. until i started to get itchy all over that is. =P hmmm funny thing is, i analyse and look for the rotten stuff in my fruits... but most times, i dun really dare analyse the rotten stuff in me. juz like my msn nick was 'see within. wat filth.', i assume that most of us are the same... not wanting to analyse ourselves too much. when i start looking at all the rot in me, i start to quiver and wonder if this is really me... and shake myself with a startle. then i'm back into my nice little rosy picture of life and shutting out the filth within. oopz juz realised it's quite ironic, shutting out the filth within. =P how do we shut out something that's within unless we acknowledge it and do something about it? hmmmm rose apple indeed. anyway i ate 1 of the 3 that i cut. heh. and it was juicy. =)

Mid-autumn at rooftop

hmm the moon wasn't bright and round yesterday. the sky was cloudy so most of the moon was covered. but that didn't dampen our spirits =)

rainy rainy day...hello!

i shall do abit of blogging heee...

yeah actually it's quite weird tt we blog for everyone to read when we used to keep diaries under lock and key... eh actually guess wat's blogged is not d deepest deepest stuff for alot of pple? or juz want to let pple noe wat's happening in our lives? or? hmm oh wasn't my point in this post haha

it's a rainy rainy day todaay! the sky was dark. the temperature low. the wind blew. the rain poured. thunder roared. lightning flashed. AND i couldn't hear myself and others in the engine canteen as we ate. hmphz super bad acoustics... of all places in the ENGINE canteen. i "huhhhh"ed a zillion times. okie i'm exaggerating but yeah... bad acoustics.

met duong at the canteen and he joined us for dinner! how nice! heh i better jot down the 5 vietnamese words i learnt from him before i forget. chao baan - hello you (general). chao an - hello older male. chao am - hello younger male/female. chao jing - hello older female. sigh i forgot the 5th word supposed to be byebye. sigh. i think i remembered the words correctly =P

new girl eileen joined us today. =) hmm i'm always so worried tt people will be put off by the late meeting/apologetic for it being late. y?? guess coz i think it's quite late too hahahah... or hmm i'm letting the timing affect rather than trusting God to convict their hearts to come despite the late meetings? :S

how much of me do u know? how much of u do i know?

Fruity FRuity

yay... THANK GOD!!! yeap really wonderful that He brought 6 international friends tonight - Ei, Toe, Duong, Nhan, Shu yue, Lijing.

we were waiting til around 9 pm and there weren't any of them in sight. but at 9 plus they started turning up! wow... and they're juz soo cute. so bubbly and easy to make friends with. Thank the good Lord!

hmm i'm feeling really fruity rite now with the durians, duku... cikgu? still can't tell =P, pomelo, jambu, pineapple... a weird mix no doubt. pray that we don't get stomach ache. =/

now... where do we go from here? *hmm my comp seems to be swaying again. isit my eyes or is the comp/table really swaying?* oh i was saying, yeah how are we gonna go from here? God please grant us wisdom, love and strength. =)

i had half a humongous vegetarian bao for dinner before the fruits. then i was hungry at 12:00 am and ate mooncake. *huge sigh* how to sleep now?? hmm glad i'm gonna have a workout tomorrow... oh no... more aches!

btw... i chose this colour coz it reminds me of the durian heheh

fruit supper party

it's fruit supper party tml! we've invited the international students in engineering and school of design and environment to come join us for this party. how many international students will come? how many cfers will come? are the fruits enough? will the mix of fruits be bad for the stomach? will they be comfortable and eager to mix and make friends? will acquaintances become friendships? will it last? will some accept Him one day?

lotsa questions. lotsa expectations. it's in His hands now. prepare our hearts.

hmmm Mavis my friend, you are right. i am bo liao today. =/ replying to emails which don't really need me to reply etc etc.

quite sian of the stuff that i'm doing that's all heh.

okie dokie shan't be bo liao anymore...

ka-boom!!

sunday - my dad's car had a clang, trang, clang sound for a while... then it disappeared. the car seemed fine after that ... but wat was that sound??

today - took a lift from dad to school and on our way, there was a sudden KA-BOOOMM!!!!!!!!! i literally jumped from my seat manz... my dad and i were like... errrrmmm wat was that?! no dragging of car ... everything seemed fine... and when my dad checked, it was alright. hmmm what happened? maybe it was the car behind us coz it slowed down. hope its alright. but gosh... it was real loud =P

thank God we're okie and everything seems fine