She was indeed pregnant... but what i heard happened was that she was possessed. hmmm... this reminds me of how i was scared of being possessed by some evil spirit. I think i stressed myself out by thinking about that. Couldn't do anything about that fear. Tried seeking comfort from my family, being in the midst of lotsa people, switching on all the lights, playing music, switching my brain to "don't think about it" mode... but well, it still didn't help. I was still super scared. And it isn't a good feeling... to be helpless, sleepless, and totally preoccupied by this fear that had become possessive in itself.
What's most devastating then, is being so fearful and trying to be in control of my life, mind and situation. Where is God then? Where have i placed Him in all my emotions? As a back up i suppose... when all else fails...
Yes, indeed when all else fails, i know that He doesn't fail... if only we put our trust in Him. For it wasn't until i learnt that God is the most powerful, with Jesus Christ being the living example of how the evil spirits feared him and how he's had victory over them and death, that i started to put my trust in God regarding this matter. Whatever my fears, i tell it to him... and he comforts me.
Just like this time, when i encountered such an incident, i was erm actually fearful... until he reminded me of his love, and to have faith in Him...
Tis me of little faith...
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